Evidence of A Broken Heart

I held my breath
     And pleaded with the
Scalding water
To pour harshly onto my shoulders

  I wanted to burn the memories
Needed to wash you out of my mind
Off of my skin
Out of my heart

   And I pressed against the place on my hip
Where your hands had held me firmly-
Tried to rub your fingerprints away
And rinse them
Down
The drain

     Too much evidence of the broken heart
I gave you to destroy

I counted the number
Of times
I’d run back to you
With the tears that slid softly
Down my porcelain skin
   And fell
In the same places your kisses
Had been placed on my body

   My silent cries to heaven formed a vapor
Of the past around my head
As I pleaded
      God, please take me back
...this beaten harlot

Do you think
It’s possible for Him
To love me still?

      If God has a price-
A limit
I passed it long ago

This needs to be the end
Of the cliff I’m hanging from

So I’ll close my eyes
And let go

I'll let go

And I close my eyes
But all I can see
        Is your face